I cant believe four years have passed since my somewhat underwhelming attempts at blogging fell into my personal festering pit of incomplete things. I’m sure this page had fun in there alongside my abandoned Mandarin classes, neglected Kitchenaid and numerous quasi-complete sewing and painting projects. Hells, I should probably put myself in that hole as being one of my biggest failed projects.
But, I once again find myself drawn to the prospect of catharsis in writing, to satisfy an itch that cant be scratched with the vapid musings in Facebook and Instagram. Its as if I am searching for some rich threads I can add to the tapestry of life, not to say that I am unhappy per-se, but the day to day meanderings often blur into one big ball of humdrum. Perhaps picking out happy highlights and re-living them through here, might just help me find that contentment that is so easily forgotten before being acknowledged.
Im not promising this endeavour will be any more or less fruitful than it was 4 years ago, in fact I cant even promise that I wont delete this idle ramble straight away, but I feel that a mental shift is required in my life, I feel its time to come out of my foggy neutral and start participating in things that bring me joy instead of hiding under my blanket of wine and introversion..
so yeah.. if you have stumbled across this page, I make no apologies for the content.. or disjointed, sporadic and poorly written entries.
I’ve often thought of starting a blog before, thinking it would be good to conform to the foodies code and post glorious pictures of steaming hot plates of food whilst playing critique, and write over opinionated prose on restaurants that I frequent, or to put together a page as an ode to sewing or needlecraft constructs that I (eventually) complete. The truth of why i never got around to it really is that I’m just not that good at keeping up with these things, I will be inspired and update like crazy for a few months, then my attention will wane and it will be another of those projects that are in the corner of my sewing cupboard that will probably not ever be completed.
What has ACTUALLY made me pull my thumb out and start blogging, wasn’t a fanciful notion that ill be able to make a glorious page full of insightful and inspiring words to share a little piece of myself with the world, and is moreso driven by my own personal need to get all of the busy busy thoughts out of my cluttered brain in a productive and cathartic way. And honestly, whining to my friends and family constantly about everything might be cathartic, but its certainly not productive if you don’t want people to think you do nothing but complain or boast, or talk constantly.
And so is born my little piece of the web, where I can post a billion pics of pretty cupcakes, rant about the shortcomings of a recent video game, or simply wax rhapsodic about the meal I have just eaten at the local sichuanese restaurant, and people don’t have to read it if they don’t want to.
so welcome to my crazy. 🙂